inadequacy

i want something more than this

to the point that it makes me crazy,

burning with envy

admiration

indescribable awe

at the workings of your mind. unafraid to confront

what is ugly,

ignoble,

ordinary and unsatisfying. it feels

like diving into a pool with my eyes open,

the water rushing into the soft, sensitive membranes

causing them to burn,

yet i cannot

flinch.

this is what life is about: this is that sweet,

rough

realization that the most meaningful

connections occur when we realize

how disconnected we are from one another

and from ourselves.